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I'm no fun today.
Thu Feb 21 2002

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Magnetic Poetry Creation for Today

my sleepless dreams are of frost pierced shadow
there is no peace this night
a black storm has come
rain smears the window
I watch from the wrong side of the glass

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It must be that I'm tired. I simply can't concentrate on anything today. Too busy feeling sorry for myself, I think.

Checked on getting help with my taxes and filing on line. $20 for an uncomplicated filing through a do-it-yourself site sponsored by my bank? $80 if I want online help? And that's just for federal; state costs extra on top of that. I don't think so. I'm not that desperate. Yet. There is something very wrong with a system that requires someone whose finances are as simple as mine to go seeking help though.

I did get three e-mails overnight from e-friends wondering how I was doing. I hadn't wanted to write first, since doing that would have looked like I was going around soliciting pity for the situation on our forum. Which I emphatically am not. They were three of the five people I most wanted to stay in touch with though, and it felt good to know that they all were wondering how I was making out. I wrote them all back, as best I could, this morning, amongst all the other things I had to get ready before the guys who were coming in to film showed up.

I'm still annoyed about last night, which does not bode well for the weekend. If I don't get over this, then nothing can be resolved until our weekend visitors leave on Sunday.

Today is the 21st of the month. That always makes me a little weird anyhow, when I notice it. I'll explain the 21st of next month, if anyone doesn't remember the story. That will be the fifth anniversary.

13 Comments
  • From:
    Franny (Legacy)
    On:
    Thu Feb 21 2002
    dang! i'm surprised he still has a working finger. can't believe he tapped in your ear...

  • From:
    Sweetstar1974 (Legacy)
    On:
    Thu Feb 21 2002
    This sounds so familiar! I don't know how many times I'd lay there in bed seething at Troy and not say anything. Glad I don't have to deal with that anymore! LOL. Hope things calm and you work things out. :-)
  • From:
    Shay4l (Legacy)
    On:
    Thu Feb 21 2002
    It's a good thing you think he's he's cute, is all I can say ;o)
  • From:
    AQuietEvening (Legacy)
    On:
    Thu Feb 21 2002
    Oh yes - I had a few of those nights when we were first married. My husband just sighs really loud so that I know he's not sleeping....if he tapped my ear??? I think he'd have at least one less finger.

    Now comes the fun making up part :-)

    ~QE
  • From:
    NooNoo (Legacy)
    On:
    Thu Feb 21 2002
    Wolf is a black king, too... So you're not all alone in your evil chess games ;).

    cur
  • From:
    Franny (Legacy)
    On:
    Thu Feb 21 2002
    well, you may feel like you're no fun, but you sure do make great magnetic poetry! ;-)
  • From:
    Shay4l (Legacy)
    On:
    Thu Feb 21 2002
    Sorry I didn't write. I think I'm up on events, though.

    I hope you can resolve your issues before the the weekend!
  • From:
    Slipperman (Legacy)
    On:
    Thu Feb 21 2002
    both have sarcastic mates....yet another clue we're the same person.

    mine drug me out of bed last night, but for a good reason. we had to pack. long story. tapping my ear with his finger would've been worse, though.
  • From:
    Jade (Legacy)
    On:
    Thu Feb 21 2002
    I remember the story... sorry it's the 21st again. Hope you cheer up and have some fun tonight.

  • From:
    Shay4l (Legacy)
    On:
    Fri Feb 22 2002
    I see I should log in before looking at my comments...
  • From:
    Franisbueno (Legacy)
    On:
    Fri Feb 22 2002
    That's a reason why I won't own a king size bed. it's too easy to go to bed together without making up. If there's mandatory skin contact, it will get resolved that night. just a me thing i think.

    I'm sorry, I don't know what the 21st is of next month. :( i would like to know, but if you don't want to make a whole entry, i'll check the comments later... Thanks!

    ~franisbueno
  • From:
    Rudyshoes (Legacy)
    On:
    Fri Feb 22 2002
    I do that all the time. Rent videos and then not watch them, I mean. But in my case it's because I'm not really a movie person.
    I can sympathize with the conflicts in sleeping habits. I think that's what we fight most about in our house. Mrs Shoes wakes up at 4 in the morning and I'm not usually in bed before 2. Toss in my horrible grumpiness from when I first wake up and there you have a recipe for some terrible fireworks.
  • From:
    Writergirl (Legacy)
    On:
    Fri Feb 22 2002
    I know You've pry never heard of me but I'm on eof Jade's avid readers. Hey I can't brign up her diary!!!! What happened?? I had it bookmarked. andeverything, i can't find her at all. where'd she go???