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I underestimate the Prof
Tue Nov 27 2001

I got home this evening and had a short conversation with The Professor concerning 3:00 wake up calls. I'm often confused as to how to read him - he jokes a lot which covers up what he's really feeling. He made jokes after I mentioned my displeasure at being awakened at 3:00 o'bloody a.m. that there was a time that I would have been happy and receptive to be roused from slumber in the middle of the night by him, and he guessed the good ol' days were over.

I met him head on this time, and told him that if he really believed that then we had some serious discussing to do, and if he didn't believe it could he please tell me what he was really feeling. I further explained that I simply couldn't do his irregular hours, and that it was angering me both at him and at mayself for failing to respond to his wee hour overtures. If he was feeling amorous, I certainly wasn't picking up on the clues, and if he had serious matters to discuss, I'd appreciate it if he'd either discuss them when I was still at least semi-comotose or, failing that, to let me know up front what the problem was so that I'd have reason to wake up instead of hit a slow fume.

The Prof was cool about it. No fight, no flip remarks (once he realized I was serious and not in the mood for flip remarks), no witty comebacks or "well you did this so I did that" defenses. Again, I underestimate him. I should be ashamed of myself.

I should get into the habit of saying I'm annoyed and talking it out on the spot rather than waiting. Mea culpa.

7 Comments
  • From:
    Moonman (Legacy)
    On:
    Tue Nov 27 2001
    i think it says that there are some issues there and that maybe you dread facing them directly.

    Who wouldn't?

    Don't torture yourself too much.
  • From:
    MoonriddenGirl (Legacy)
    On:
    Tue Nov 27 2001
    That you're tired, I think. Escape fantasies are sure 'nuff common to me when I'm feeling overwhelmed. Escape from motherhood, dog ownership, wifedom. I'm no stranger to the "Wouldn't it be easier without you?" phenomenon. Personally, I guess, I'd think it a danger sign if I started finding those thoughts seductive when there was nothing -wrong-. Meanwhile, can you resolve the problem and blow the tension with humor? I'd be really tempted to try a Binkley on him myself (in fact, Binkley's dad once turned the tables on Binkley that way). Unless I was spoiling for a fight, I wouldn't do it when he's actually asleep. But a good bouncing on the bed session might demonstrate to him the very real danger of retaliation. :)
  • From:
    Jade (Legacy)
    On:
    Tue Nov 27 2001
    I seem to vaguely remember you having similar fantasies in the past...

    I agree with Mr. Moon and Ms. Moon.
    Jump on his bed when he's sleeping and see how he likes being woken up. I think you're just tired - no wonder, living with a vampire.
  • From:
    Franny (Legacy)
    On:
    Tue Nov 27 2001
    bummer! no lambs for me, i'll be too late!!!
    i'd stick a do not disturb post-it on my forehead... or shake the bed while he's asleep, like the mooncrew said.
    ;-)
  • From:
    Shay40 (Legacy)
    On:
    Tue Nov 27 2001
    I think a very firm "no waking during your sleep time" rule is needed or there's VERY big trouble coming.
  • From:
    Shay40 (Legacy)
    On:
    Wed Nov 28 2001
    Good for you :o)
  • From:
    Jade (Legacy)
    On:
    Wed Nov 28 2001
    Men have a way of surprising us females every now and then. Glad it was a good surprise this time, with the chat. :)