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As my life continues at Garden Court, I do not feel free from my feelings. Ten years ago, now fourteen years ago, has my feelings of Garden Court are at a loss. My friend Jimmy Wilson, passed away from dementia at the age 50-51. His disability was Down’s syndrome, and he was married to my high school colleague and friend Kellyan Flood. Now Wilson. He is missed. I moved to Garden Court to be there for her, but to be very honest, I rarely see her. She NEVER visits me, nor I visit her. Why? With all the germs being spread, Covid, and my ability to get out right now is not going to happen. Apartments have been dealing with bed bugs and Kelly had them in her apartment long with her mother-in-law. Even my friend Donna had a couple because they can travel, and Kelly lives next door to Donna. I know, not fun, ewww. It is incredibly sad. My friend Jennie does not even come for a visit. She does have an apartment here, but she does not stay here. Her friend, I forgot her name, is on the lease and pays half the rent will she comes and does her laundry here and take showers. Yet, she never visits. She does not even talk on the ☎️ phone anymore. She prefers texting. Do not bother having a phone. Use a tablet. Do not bother having a phone number. Just use it as a tablet then. Save money on a phone bill that way. I do not have cable, but use my TVs for internet only. I knocked my cable bill down $90 to $100 … excellent. I need a phone, and AT&T is my carrier.
I will also be honest, brutally honest, Kelly uses people, once she has found her friend’s usefulness all done, she treats her friends like they are no longer worth her time. I have walked away from Kelly and Jennie one time for a while, and Jesus brought it to my attention one day to give them another chance, and it came when Jimmy passed away a year before I moved to Garden Court. My intention to move in was a good one, but I rarely see Kelly and I see Jennie once a week. I wonder why I bother with Kelly and Jennie when they rarely talk to me or visit. My heart cares for these two people, no matter what they have done to break my heart ❤️ . They have broken my heart many times, but I have stopped shedding tears 😭 and moved on with my life. Am I doing the right? I should be shedding tears…maybe? …
Nope, not going to do it because our lives have changed. Yes, I gave them, Kelly, Janessa, and Jennie another chance, and they blew it, blew it right out of the water. I lose enough sleep because my brain does not stop thinking through things st times. That is why I write in order to write my feelings out in my number of journals I have today.