I just texted JM that I need to talk to her about something weighing on my heart from the get-go. I told her that my heart had been aching for a while. She texted me back and said okay. I had gotten her attention about something important. Maybe now we can get somewhere. Now is the waiting game for the talk after the company leaves —my boyfriend and his mom. Yep, today is Sabbath Saturday, and every other weekend they come over to see me and visit for a while. I will be back later.
Sometime later...
I have spoken my feelings with success to JM. I remember her saying in the morning that she was going to be talking to JP about some things, and it might piss JP off a little bit. I did explain my thoughts were of her plans. Our conversation will not be in JP’s plans, and her not wanting my TMG consultant JR. JM will talk to JP about fraud if she chooses to bank hours if she is not here. Now I wish I could be a fly on the way to hear and see that conversation go. Since I can not be that fly in the wall, I have to pray for JM’s words to be sound and necessary to get her to talk with JP as JM does this. She plans on talking to JP before she goes on vacation. JM is not a happy camper.
My heart is no longer a heavy heart of dread and fear. I hope the message will be heard and thought of carefully when JP is on vacation. I can breathe easier now, as well. It has to be in God’s hands.
Dear Jesus,
You have seen and heard my struggles through tears, and from this day forward, please find that I do love you truly and want my friendship with JM still to be strong and true. Amen