Unfortunately frustration is setting in as far as my feelings are concerned regarding CSE and what has been going on in our world. I have talked to NMS a lot lately regarding CSE and her attitude and behavior. I am still praying for CSE but frustration has settled in lately. I have been crying a lot when CSE is not here because I am frustrated with her. I feel I need to walk away from her and nt have her here right now but she has been helpful in my world opposite of hers.