Some people I know ... seriously ... not my friends now ... have to grow up and start acting like civil adults but those people already think that they are being civil adults...NOT! That is why I am not friends with certain people in the building I live in. I am not one of those people who will not be suckered into believe things or sucked into doing wrong. I am my own person today and always. I know who my friends are, and I am speaking of the friends who are true friends of mine, I know my neighbors, and I know what goes on around me ... good or bad ... I am not stupid. I am not a follower but a leader. Even today, my heart aches with not understanding things and wishing that an understanding could be found, but I cannot pursue in finding answers to the millions of questions I have in my heart and mind. I am here to take care of me and me alone ... including my cat Bing Crosby. No matter where or what i am doing for myself, I end up having more questions and right now i have a worry about a couple of people in my life.