My heart is breaking right now...

Tears want to spill...

I am hurting right now emotionally...

The happy feeling I have felt for the past three days has all of a sudden disappeared. I want to scream and holler at the top of my lungs and spill my heart out to the world right now but that is not going to get me anywhere. I feel that the feelings I contend with, both good and not so good feelings, are best hidden from others because it seems that once my happiness has reached a point, it gets knocked out of me to unhappiness. No more spring in my step now at this moment. That has also disappeared for the time being.

I have this feeling that I am being spied upon.

Seriously...

and it sucks to be feeling that way, too.