JM’s trust was misplaced. I do not know how to talk to her. It has been a while since I have said ‘I love you’ to her. Her status as a friend is not or has been since 1997. I am hurting so badly that I am in tears every night for a while. I am hurting that bad; even JP argues and gets argumentative. It isn’t enjoyable. With her ways of reasoning, my voice raises to do the same. It gets frustrating in my mind and brain. Yet, it is not easy to trust JM right now. I believe it is at a point where I want a break from her. My mom suggested a mediator, but I prefer not. JM’s attitude is similar to my Dad’s, which is too hard to explain right now.