I am going to lay in bed all day. Yay! JP will be in and out from my place as age is helping my neighbor and friend with her place as she will lose her kitten Tux if she doesn’t clean her place up a bit because her place is really messy. I think it is waste of JP’s help, though. MH loves a messy apartment apparently. . .not JP’s helping her that bothers me right now. It is going to be wasted time helping MH. are you doing? MH has to clean regularly and make sure Tux’s litter box on a daily and regular basis. My kitty litter boxes get cleaned daily of their poopies and pee sessions, lol. Not funny, I know. All I am going to do is watch Midsomer Murders on Freevee or Pluto tv on my bedroom television, nap, and relax to eat my supper and snacks for the night. I have dialysis tomorrow on Sunday, December 31, 2023. After today, we have one day left of 2023. Then, on Monday, January 1, 2024, and Tuesday, I have my so-called weekend until Wednesday when the holidays will be over for the year, and my weekly routine and schedule will be back ON TRACK and regular again. No more closing the dialysis center for a while. I will be back to my regular schedule.
Abandonment Issues
I am dealing with abandonment issues or I am having difficulty dealing with it improperly. One of the two, right? Yeah, right! The little girl inside me we call Little One has been dealing with her mother abandoning her at age 12. She did not understand what abandonment meant when she was a teenager and when her mom move to Albuquerque, NM in 1982, because family made sure we saw mom on a regular basis and for Christmas in 1982, my brother GLK and I visited her for a few days while we were younger. Grandma and Grandpa Fox made sure that we talked to Mom often and on the weekends we spent the night. Abandonment was not even on my mind until my teenage years. One of the hardest for me was through the years was Mom coming to Wisconsin and leaving days later. Now, not seeing her since 2010 has been the hardest yet. My second cat Bing was a young cat the last time mom and LLL were both here for a few days as they bee-bopped up here with their camper to sleep in, and having their doggies with them. Now, the abandonment issue is back in full swing at my age of 53 because my mother has no reason to come visit Wisconsin. Ummm, mom, that hurts a lot being told this, and you not having enough money? I find that very hurtful. Since 2010, I haven’t seen you, mom! I think my mom is selfish and self-centered. It’s sad in my book of life these days. I have promised I wouldn’t be like my mother in anyway except for similar looks and voice. I sound like my mother a lot.