Ksmiley/LittleKrissi
My Garden Court Journal

I really do not have a title tonight and that is ok. Today has been somewhat of an emotional day for some reason another but things seem to be fine right now. I did not even feel like going anywhere or doing much of anything except homework eevn though I had gotten a lot of my homework done before the weekend and the stormy weather came and went and is coming again at the end of the week. I feel I have been on pins and needles all day long and just not up to company except for my friend LLD who lives on the first floor. I am still not happy about what has happened last night but I will forgive MY but I will not forget for a long time. I believe SH's death has really affected me more than I really expected it to. She was a fine neighbor and person and I will not forget her never! I wish she did not die. I have been surrounded by death ever since I have moved into TM and I have seen my share of death since 1997!

I still don't have a title for this entry. Please forgive me. I guess no title entries are just as good at times as they do express feelings. In fact I thought a friend of mine was mad at me tonight but she called earlier --- a few minutes ago --- and then got a phone call on her call waiting list and said she will call me back. I have been racked with emotion lately and it is driving me crazy. I am not mad at myself but I am wanting to kick my own butt for haviing such emotion I do not know what to express or feel. It is a crazy world out there.

Saturday night was one of the worst nights I have ever experienced in such a long time. Having a thunderstorm during the day is fine but at night, especially Saturday night, was bad and the thundering would not seem to cease for a while. The lightning was the worst. It was so bright that I had to turn the other way to go to sleep or I was not going to go to sleep until the storm was over. I had awakened knowing that my television was on all night long but it was off in the morning because the electricity blinked out during the storm. How I knew this was the fact that the light in my bedroom was on low and the clock on my VCR was blinking at me 12:00 driving me crazy! No, I do not like storms but I will tolerate them during the day as long as I do not have to go out in the rainstorm when it is thundering and lightning. I never know if my umbrella will hold up in a windy storm because I did have an umbrella go inside out on me several times.

I have been doing very well in school at University of Phoenix. I can not say anything more than that right now due to the fact that I have only completed three classes there and now in my third week of my fourth class as of tomorrow/Tuesday, June 7, 2005.

Well my friends, I have to run for now and go to bed. Good night and God bless.