So you know, I love what I do as far as being a diarist. I have been with Dear Diary (DD) for almost 25 years now — September or October now. DD has become my home away from home and I have met some other diarists as well. 

Sentence Structure and Paper Perfection

Now, when it comes to how other diarists write in their journals and share their lives with us other diarists, I do have to admit that I am kind of picky with mine. Please consider it a fetish with me or I am a perfectionist in writing because in college I wanted  paper written in MLA or APA format and sentence structure to be a certain way. In a diary, however, how a person writes it, should be done in any way that suits them. If you were writing for a class assignment, I do have to admit that I get annoyed with words being used out of context and will call a student or writer of the assignment with a red marking pen. But for a journal entry, I will bypass sentence structure and grammatical errors with ease. In that picky, I guess. Anyway…

And…

My life goes on with my journaling on a regular basis or everyday. I know I will write a lot some days, but that is how I tick sometimes. That is why I will no longer worry about having a day or two without writing anything if I don’t want to say anything. I will be back when I have more time after a little, needed, break. I will find time to write everyday when I can

Different Ways to Write…

Also, when it comes to my journaling and taking the time to write, I do have to admit that I find writing therapeutic and meaningful. I have read other journals at Dear Diary (DD) throughout the past 24 years, going on 25 years, that I’ve seen how other people write in their readable diary pages. Hmmm, I find similar genres and as well as differences in writing in a journal without  sending them a note of grammatical corrections and using the  wrong list of words being used in the right way. I allow other diarists express themselves the way they want and they let me express myself the way I do it. I have to bite my tongue at times.

Working VS Not Working?

Since I have my health to look out for on a daily basis and believe me I would love to do other things than go to dialysis three times a week outside the home/apartment, but at this time I cannot skip my treatments or I will be six feet under, and I’m not ready to die, YET! I have a reason to be alive. So, because of my health, I do NOT work inside or outside the home. I work hard on remaining healthy with kidney disease and strive toward my second transplant from my first one 37 years ago, I sometimes find myself having rough, emotional and mental issues to work on a regular basis or daily a job in it self. Yes. I don’t paid for this job in a monetary sense, but I get paid in such a way of a learning experience learned, reviewed, and accomplished when the job is done  for the day.

Since I do not work, I have more time to watch TV, read, relax, write away my thoughts and feelings, get online to watch videos on Facebook and Instagram on a daily basis, and share such things on my Facebook and Twitter/X account as well. I have no understanding as to why Elon Musk changed Twitter to X a couple of years ago or so ie beyond my comprehension because the new name X makes it seem more sexual in my way of thinking, so X will remain Twitter in my mind to the day I am no longer above ground, ok? I have NOT visited that social media site in sooooooooo long! I will need to check it out today through the weekend.

My Preferences

From this day forward and the beginning of the 2025 year, I stopped using Microsoft Word and began using Pages since I am a Apple product user and have an iPad, iPhone, and Apple Watch. The programs Apple has: Pages, Keynote, and Numbers free to use, I have unsubscribed to Microsoft Word, PowerPoint, and Excel. Some of the Word and Excel formatting gets under my skin in a way that is almost violent! No, we do not always get along. I have come to find Pages, Numbers, and Keynote easier to utilize for my journaling and writing of papers. Now, if I have to write a paper for Microsoft Word, I can save it under a format Windows can read my written document in MS Word or Excel. The MacOS and iOS is easier for me to understand the MS software for Windows and MacOS/iOS. Apple products work better for me. They are not complicated like MS Office is to me. I have been using MacOS/iOS over 5 years now. I think my stepfather has also.

When it comes to my writing in my journal or any document I’m working with, I find Pages and Numbers, and Keynote easier to manipulate than MS Word, Excel, and PowerPoint. Pages and Numbers seem to be user friendly to me more so than MS Office! With that said, I do have to admit that my iMac did have Windows put on the MacOS system, but I have gotten rid of the computer after getting my first iPad. When I move to my new place, I will be saving up for a new iMac. I am actually doing that right now.

Not Perfect But Strive For Perfection in Writing

When it comes to writing, I strive for perfection. I know I am not perfect and so my writing will not be perfect, either. With that said, I can do my best at writing papers and documents as perfect as I possibly can. I have been to school and college and learned how to write essays, papers in MLA and APA format, how to write different forms of letters, notes, and memos. Some things were self taught while others were taught from a textbook or teacher in their profession of area: Mathematics, English, History or Social Studies, and Science. If I missed something, let me know, ok? Thank you) I strive for perfection when necessary in the work world the best I can when it’s important. I try to dress and carry myself professionally in the work as possible. Otherwise I carry myself my own way when be professional is NOT necessary.

Sometime Last Year and Now

I have learned that writing my feelings and thoughts is a lot more easier then verbally telling you exactly how I feel. Although the words are thought properly, I find speaking difficult and the words DO NOT come out properly and that is very frustrating for me. I haven’t been able to find the right counseling place that could help me with my temper tantrums or what my counselor Deb J calls meltdowns until 2024 when Mercy Options Behavioral Health called me to arrange my first appointment with Deb J. I was impressed that I found the right person to work with because from last year when I started going there to this year in August 2025, I have learned a lot about myself and my family that I have found a way to express myself the one way I am good at—writing more than verbally speaking my feelings. So Dear Diary has been my friend for almost 25 years since I joined in September or October 2001 on the. chance I wanted a place to express myself openly for the public and world to know me as a broken human being like many others.

Thank You Goes Out

For some of the other diarists of DD out there who share their lives: thoughts and feelings like I do, need to be thanked for taking the time to read my diary entries here. You’re comments help me strive for the better in life through my days of life. I enjoy reading the diaries of other diarists here at DD as well because I love hearing from all of you in your way of journaling and blogging. Thank you for putting up with me and my sometimes lengthy entries and my need to vent and rant away.