When I get frustrated during the week, it shows, and I sometimes feel like I need to cry my eyes out. When I do, I would rather cry in my own private place or in my own home away from others. I told Jackie in a text that I am feeling frustrated, I got on at 11:50 am by the time I started dialysis for 2 hours and 45 minutes to get my blood cleaned for the weekend. Seeing certain staff at dialysis today has not made me very happy today—Kay, the social worker, and the director, Jaimie. Even though they have hurt me emotionally inside, if they walk by and say hi,I say hi back to be kind. Once I leave MercyHealth to go to SSM Health’s Fresenius. Going to dialysis now is a must until I leave MercyHealth. I don’t want to leave, but it is time for me to change systems medically, and I will do it quietly by letting certain people know.