A Fair Start

For a Sunday, today‘s beginning of the day was not too bad. My day was NOT perfect by any means, but it was an up and down sort of day after 12 noon. At least I got up and used the bathroom and changed into comfortable clothes for the day of lounging as I always changed my disposable underwear every morning. I was glad that I didn't have any visitors today—every other Sunday I usually see my boyfriend and his mom for about an hour and sometimes two hours. But her friend lost her husband and father both in A short span of time between her family, and my boyfriend‘s mom said that her friend had the memorial for her husband this weekend and it was a rough time for her friend. We tend to miss our loved ones when they pass away. I know I miss my Grandma Myra and Grandpa Clarence a lot after 1997 and 2003. I actually remember them more during the holiday seasons of Christmas, Thanksgiving, and Easter the most, and still acknowledge their birthdays In July and August. As far as my Grandma and Grandpa Karnopp, I was 4 when Grandpa Karnopp passed away, and I was 15 when Grandma Karnopp passed away. I even remember them more during very day we learned of Grandma Karnopp’s passing. Grandma Myra’s brother and sister-in-law came to Fox’s cottage that August morning to come tell my dad a d his wife that his mother had passed and the Karnopp family in Gays Mills and Boscobel m Wisconsin knew where dad was going to be. My friend Brenda M and I were waking up to the news when Grandma Myra came onto thr porch to tell me Grandma Karnopp passed away. That is one memory I remember so well and had to take a double take because I did not hear her say Grandma ’Karnopp’ HAD passed away exactly as I was still sleepy when Grandma Myra was standing there. Even Brenda and I looked at each other. As soon as the news hit both of us it was Grandma Karnopp who died, we both jumped out of bed, got dressed, and helped about the cottage while dad and his wife left for Boscobel to take care of family matters that week. It was one of those weeks that summer in August. I will never forget it in my right mind if I end up with major memory loss like my Grandpa Clarence did the last 10 years of his life of 82 to 92. He died on February 15, 2003 at the age of 92. Not yet 93.

No One Wants to Be on my Questionable List…believe ME!

Although I have already stated that I am done with the tenants in Garden Court except for 3 people now. Well, someone, a friend of mine, has hit a nerve with me this evening. When something or someone hits a nerve with me, it takes a lot out of me mentally and physically that sometimes I take what Jackie, my caregiver texts me something with an lol at the end of the sentence and nothing about the text is funny to me. I care less what Jackie does or who she is with while out and about, but that lol was an unnecessary evil in my mind earlier. All because my friend Jennie shared with me her boyfriend’s cats, and I have heard that she wants to get rid of her doggie Luke, and that poor dog has been in her life since he was a puppy now, anc h?er girlfriend who lives with Jennie says Luke is barely fed! Nothing about that is being done by the proper authority and people. This upsets me hearing this and she doesn’t want Luke anymore. How disgusting and pathetic as I find Jennie selfish in this case. It angers me! I am done with her now, too, exactly like Janessa O. DONE! Ugh! You don’t want to piss me off right now. I will bite your head off!

Talking to Jackie P

I have come to this realization a whirl ago, ok? When it comes to my need to vent or speak my mind, I would rather have Jackie be my sounding board In text when the time is necessary. I tried taking my thoughts and feelings to Deb because it was Jackie’s day off, but my talking to Deb about what was thinking and seeing at the time, I got a whole different vibe from Deb. I find my mom and Jackie my best sounding boards when I ned to deal with my meltdowns and emotional ups and downs. Deb doesn’t help me much. Jeepers! Oh well.