With it now at the 6 am hour of the 11th of October, I am up and actually, I never slept last night. I had another sleepless night, AGAIN. I will be honest with YOU and MYSELF, ok? Anyway, it’s NOT going to be the first time or it’s last time this will happen because my brain doesn’t always let me rest from time to time, and yes, I do get very tired every once in a while, so, to not have what happened last weekend on Sunday and Monday during my dialysis weekend, I had another sleepless visit with Mr. Monkey ALL week because something went wonky everyday from Sunday to Thursday. Nope, things did not go according to plan last week (Sunday through Thursday) that just made it an emotional few days. When Mr. Monkey comes for his darn visits, I do not cope with it very well once he starts on me. Mr. Monkey isn’t very nice after a while and ends up with his stash of bananas before he leaves me alone until next time. Anyway, starting today, I do not have any dialysis weekends the rest of the month of October. I am free to do what I need to do at home by relaxing, reading, watching tv, and resting because sleep seems to evaded me more this week than any other week having only a couple of nights a week.of little or no sleep 🛌 😴. So why did I have a meltdown last weekend? I don’t know why at this time. Even though I’ve recorded my thoughts during my meltdown, but did not yet shared my thoughts on Dear Diary yet, and I’m not sure if I will at this time. I’m still recovering from it. I am feeling more exhausted when I first get up, but I am getting in and out of bed and going through my routine as I normally do, but going moving more slowly to prevent any falls or mishaps while awake  during the day.