Ksmiley/LittleKrissi
My Life in Words

I am feeling stressed out at this time. Every year between Halloween and New Year’s, I deal with a lot of emotions I cannot always explain. Although I love the holidays, the giving and receiving, and getting together with my dad and stepmom Sandy, I am anxious and deal with some depression during the holidays. Although change is occurring all the time, change and I have issues from time to time. Change and I do not always mesh well. I am used to a schedule and once I am on a schedule, I keep to it. With my two caregivers, they do things differently because they are two different individuals. Deb is in her 60’s while Jackie is in her 40’s. I am in my mid 50’s. My mom is 80, my dad is 82, Sandy is 74, Lonnie is 73, my brother is 58, sister is 37, and a sister-in-law who is going to be 59 in a day or two, so I have a family that has a variety of ages. Some family members are not young anymore. At my age, I have seen a lot of death in the past 10 years among friends and family that I did not worry about when I was younger … now, I worry about. I still love the holidays, but the celebrating comes with an emotional attachment I do not want.