My Morning
I am feeling a bit moody lately. With Deb not feeling well this morning, Jackie had to come get me out ppof bed, dressed for the day, and ask Marie H to help me make sure I get out the door in the lobby because Jackie had a hair appointment at 10:30 AM. I feel bad that Deb is not feeling well today, but her communication with Jackie did not go well. Jackie did not respond to a message immediately because Deb didn’t want to wake up her son for school. Tyler is a senior in high school and should be waking himself up to get ready for school…not his mother for goodness sake. He plans going to college and his mother is not going with him to make sure he getting up to go to classes! What the heck! He is 18 years old and needs to be independent and she coddles her son’s whims and babies him. He needs a routine to follow and set his alarm clock to wake him up … not his darn mother! Oh my goodness gracious! He may have a disability and some emotional issues, but he needs to learn independence. It is a sad situation.
With that said, I have to admit that I feel my life is not my own, but Jackie’s at times I feel I am having the feeling Jackie doesn’t want to work. She took on a family member by marriage who can call her at certain times to discuss why she can’t do this and that with her money because she spends money on things she doesn’t need. I wish I had that problem, but I do not have impulse issues like that. I am a gamer who has stopped buying $1.99 worth of tokens to finish a level in a game because I have went in the whole more than once because of it. That is why I do not spend money on games anymore. I spend money I don’t have anymore. Yeah, it sucks, but I have to do what is right if I am planning on moving from Garden Court soon. So my morning has been an emotional roller coaster and Tiffany the technician and Tiffany the nurse were picking on me this morning to get me to smile a bit, and they did not realize I am having am off day because my schedule has had a snag this morning.
As far as my emotions go, when there is too many people in my space, I am not very comfortable and become quiet. When I am moody, I want my dang space bombarded with too many people at one time. That is why over the weekend when Jackie brought my neighbors Liberty and Marie up to my place to see Magic and Millie without asking me first because it is not her home, but mine. I did not want the girls in my apartment Friday night because I was tired and moody from the week’s dialysis treatments and getting other things done. It was after 8 pm and I was tired. Jackie needs to stop bringing others with her without asking me first! Dang it.