Ksmiley/LittleKrissi
My Life in Words

I am learning how to cope through counseling. When I feel that someone doesn’t understand me, I have to write my feeling out, D’vorahDavida Dialysis Update I visited with Dr. Anjum when he made his rounds through the clinic. When he got to me, I asked him what the side affects of low hemoglobin is, and after he told me what they were, I was sure not having symptoms, and Penny the nurse said that I did not have any symptoms and hemoglobin level was 12.8 where it should be—normal. When this happened last Wednesday, I had a few minutes of anxiety waiting for the test results to come through, and when I did see the results were in the normal range, I was able to breathe normal again. Today, for some reason that cannot be explained, I was happy to get out of the clinic. I am not fond of tension being high anywhere. It is crippling and it feels like a vise tightening on your head to support it from further injury. I did nor say hello to many techs today. I just watched techs and nurses do what they do best. I did not pay attention to the conversations around me. I kept to myself, my space was mind and those allowed without any qualms from them. I just watched a tv program of couples, friends, and families search for a vacation home with a certain. That half hour show was watched from 11:30 AM to 2:20 PM. Upon my arrival, I was glad to get out of the clinic. Although it is important to go, I wish I did not have to go to Mercy anymore. My plans to leave are necessary. I no longer trust MercyHealth in many ways even though Dr. ANJUM has done nothing wrong, I need to leave Mercy for good and go to SSM Health. I want to go to Fresenius in Creston Park Mall in Janesville, Wisconsin. The Rest of My Day With dialysis done, I weighed out at 94.??, I rolled out of the clinic and said goodbye to the husbands who were waiting for their wives having treatment and the receptionist Kathy while I passed through the lobby to head downstairs to wait for my ride home. It was John who picked me up at 2:49 PM. I went for a short ride while my ride picked up another patient to take home, then I was the first to be dropped off at home, I do not mind riding around a bit. I was glad to get out of the clinic when I did because I was uncomfortable there today. My rides are brief most of the time anyway. Deb and I made a lunch, and I ate at my kitchen table, walked to the bathroom to use the 🚽—please excuse my use of emojis and stickers—then my underwear was changed, and I went to my bedroom for the rest of the afternoon and evening. I wanted to watch some tv, read, and relax with the cats not too far away. Millie loves to sleep in the hammock while Magic lays and sleeps on the bed with me. He loves to cuddle and snuggle with me. My babies (cats) have different personalities. If want to know more about them, I have a diary called Magic & Millie Kitties. They have their own journal now. I think I am going to change the title soon. It does not sound like a good title right now. Thinking of a title to change the one I have for the kiddo cats now. The rest of my day was spent watching TV and relaxing on the bed. No plans until tomorrow. I have a med check with Joeylynn, my med prescriber and therapist. I see Deb J as my counselor at Mercy Options. Time to Be Honest I am fed up with MercyHealth all around except for Mercy Options. I have been told that no lawyer will touch a case with MercyHealth. I do not understand this. Seriously? What MercyHealth gets away with is absolutely ridiculous and insane! When the opportunity comes to leave MercyHealth Dialysis Center, I will do so without looking back. I will leave Mercy Dialysis Center and go to Fresenius the moment I have the chance. I will talk to my nurse M as soon as I can. At this time, I have had it with MercyHealth except for Mercy Options where I go to have counseling with Deb J, and see a med prescriber Joeylynn. Also, since SSM Health does not have certain things for physical therapy and a pool, Jackie is talking to Dr. C Taylor about getting PT at Mercy East. I feel the MercyHealth has failed me big time at the dialysis center. Who would put notes in my chart saying that I have had a breakdown. What, I have a difficult day occasionally, and what happened on Friday should not have happened. Kay should have not said a word to me about what Froedert wrote in their notes on Thursday. I was told by Kay saying that I may not be a candidate for another transplant because I cannot walk, and first, Froedert has not discuss my case yet, and second, they did not say what Kay said to me on Friday. Some people need to keep their mouths shut in front of me So, today, while at the center getting dialyzed, I did not feel incredibly happy, and I do not want to continue to have care at Mercy. Mercy has created a trust issue with me since 2022. I will be writing a complaint soon. It is not the right time, MercyHealth is the cause of great anxiety, and I will be leaving MercyHealth soon. It is frustrating and at the time of tears running down my cheeks. My mom gets me and she has been in New Mexico from 1982-1993 and 1999-present. I have gone to see her and her husband off and on during the years of 1999-2010 and she and her husband visiting here. My grandpa, mom’s Dad was down there because mom moved him down there until his death in 2003. My mom hasn’t been up here in 14 years, so i feel I am going through abandonment issues with her as a child when I am a 54 year old adult. I have been able to use my little girl voice ever since I was a child. People tell me I should do voice overs. Sometimes I wonder if I will get emotionally better or worse. Definitely not worse, of course, because anxiety and panic disorder sucks.