Getting to Know Me Today  

  I know I have been with Dear Diary (DD) since 2001, and the past 25 years have been one roller coaster ride I either welcomed or not. If I remember when I found Dear Diary on-line was when I was 21 years old and going to school at our local 2 year college Blackhawk Technical College to take classes in Accounting. Well, Dear Diary became a permanent home for me and I did not ever regret finding DD when I did September 2001! DD has been my home since!     I do have to admit that through the past 25 years of being a diarist here at DD, even though when it was free and in its early stages, I did find Dear Diary a special place and becoming a member of the diary for $3.99 a month or $39.99 a year, I have not hesitated on the cost in recent weeks and years of its growth in 25 years!. I still wanted my space and time with Dear Diary, and my caregiver Jackie agreed with me that I had a place to write. Writing helps me heal from a time that is not always a good time or day sometimes. I need this avenue and road to walk on. I am a 55 year old woman who has grown up in the age of computers and game consoles keeping the child intrigued with how electronics work yesterday and today, and back in a day.

     In 2022, I found myself in an emotional state of mind that was not my healthiest at the time. I was in two nursing homes for a while because my physical state of my body changed for a while without my permission, and that change of body was I could not walk. That set me into a new reality that took four years to accept. I still get angry at myself about some things I do not have control of because I am human and I have feelings like every human on this planet we live on. I get it.

     Now, in 2026, four years later, I have accepted some things about myself I cannot change, but I still get upset with myself with the choices I make or have made in my life in the past and in the here and now scenario of life. That is another day coming of my thoughts, okay? Thanks for understanding. More another time, okay?