Here I am, before and after midnight, writing in my diary at DD because my thoughts are going in every directiat at the worst time right now. NOW? Yep, right now! For the past couple of days, starting over the weekend, my thoughts process brought up some past memories that have put me in a bit of mood that I really dislike. I have realized today that my trust in people has been getting more difficult for me. Also, when I get in a certain mood that my trust in people has gotten bad, why can‘t I remember to go to my Savior and Lord Jesus? He will always be here and there for me during my low, emotional times, too. Darn it! Sometimes I do hate myself for being something I am not. UGH! I will be ok and I will get through what I am going through. Thanks for listening and reading. I appreciate your understanding and thoughts, too.