I will admit that my week was a long one. Today I went to Fresenius to get trained on the hemodialysis machine I will be doing at home starting in November. From today to the 31st of October, I will be going to Fresenius to be trained on a hemodialysis machine for the home. That is why I decided to leave MercyHealth Dialysis Center on July 1st, 2025. MercyHealth Dialysis Center doesn’t support hemodialysis in the home and probably never will like Fresenius Kidney Care does. I am laying on my bed in the dark while watching Nancy Drew and the Hardy Boys on Prime Time TV with the time on the clock going on to 11 pm Friday evening. I have yet to very honest with myself, I have failed my first night of not being on any electronics, but I still am. I guess it will be something I have to work hard on without putting restrictions on myself right now until I’m ready AGAIN?! Maybe?? Ok.

My meltdown has set me up to fail this week or at least make me see it that way this week anyway. Yeah, I had a rough week because a lot of things were NOT going smoothly ALL WEEK, but I’m still alive, and that counts for something in my way of thinking and such. What happened this week could have been worse but it was not any worse than it was according to Mr. Monkey getting a banana or more all week. I survived the whole ordeal day and night thankfully! That’s a plus in my book of life experiences. Yeah, it was a long weekend but I’m still here to tell you all about it. No mumbling and backing out now. I have the weekend to think things through and on Monday, dialysis treatment and other appointments will continue through the 31st of October.