Here I am… …having some difficulty finding the right words to stick as I click on the keys on the keyboard on the bottom of my iPad screen the words are going across the screen that is a white background with the font I chose (Bradley Hand) and the letters are black in regular print. Excuse me for being so precise right now, lol. I had a great day, and I have been having some real good days lately. These good days started on July 1st of 2025, my friends… …I am good!  I would love to elaborate WHY I have had good days since July 1st, but I want you all to know and understand that I am not trying to be smug about it and make you think that my attitude is being haughty or snotty, I don’t want to come across a certain way that’s negative. I wanted and did turn off my television for the rest of the night to concentrate on my thoughts when Sabbath finally came when the sunrise went down for the night at 8:07 pm. Sabbath is time to reflect on the week and take time for our Heavenly Father. It’s time to set aside some things to reflect on God’s Word we know is the Bible and no, I haven’t gotten religion and spiritual all of a sudden. I haven’t this feeling that tonight is going to be a little Sleep night because I am going to be changing some things in my schedule to take some time for my Savior and Lord again everyday and bring in the Sabbath from Friday night after sundown to Saturday night sundown starting tonight. I have NOT fallen off the wagon or anything, but I haven’t gone to church in a very long time — three years — because my ability to get into a vehicle right now can’t be done. I had lost my ability to walk from September 2022 to over a year and half ago because of a hematoma on the right side due to an injury during my stay at a nursing home that year. I can walk now, but the distance can’t be measured right now and I am NOT worried about distance right now because today I noticed for the first time in three years since I stopped walking for a long while, I have found happiness again.

A Memory That Has Hit Me hard!

On June 27th, I had seen a piece of paper taped to the little tv in my spot at dialysis saying FAREWELL in capital letters in a large font. That DID NOT please me at all, I found it cruel and mean of the nurse who made the sign and placed it in my cubicle. I was NOT impressed. I was hurt and quiet through the two hours and forty-five minutes I was in treatment. Even though I was NOT happy and pissed off about it 😡, I did NOT show it on my or have a tune of voice talking to my technician who was taking care of me, apparently for the last time at MercyHealth Dialysis Clinic. Even Dr, Anjum was gone that week so he got back to work to fund I was no longer there and moved on to Fresenius Kidney Care Clinic. Oh my goodness gracious, I think I know who made the FAREWELL sign… Tiffany the Nurse. 

As time passed, and the treatment was done, I said goodbye to those I liked the most and left the clinic for the last time and saying goodbye to the friends I made while I was there for the three years at the Sister Michael Barry Building in hopes of sending holiday cards and an occasional notes to my favorite technicians and nurses of the clinic, but one afternoon at dialysis, talking to a technician who used to work at MercyHealth Dialysis and has been working there for almost a year now has told me that my favorite technicians and nurses were mean about some of us patients behind our backs. Ummm, learning this from the tech, I knew she would NOT lie to me about something like that, and my feelings toward my favorite people changed in thinking that the girls who had babies and one other technician was due to have her twins in August sometime will be great mothers and I will be kind and civil to them if I ever see them in public places, but sending them a card or note is NOT going to happen now. I am not going to waste my money on gift cards for the mom’s to get what their daughters and sons need or want. My favorite people will just get my respect and smile.

More another day.