A Look At My Life Today

Comparing my life from 3 years ago and the here and now, I have to admit that my life has changed me and the way I looked at my life then to today. I had a hard time accepting my handicapping condition getting more pronounced because of the hematoma and blood infection I ended up with in August and September of 2022. Those three years were difficult and hard for me at the time to digest and accept. I can say my feelings about my condition sucked at that time and this year, I had decided to snap out of my feeling sorry state of mind of mine, and begin living again. It also meant to get away from what MercyHealth Dialysis Center for good even though it meant leaving my favorite technicians and nurses behind with leaving MercyHealth Dialysis Center for good and go to Fresenius. The way I was treated by some of the staff at Mercy Dialysis, I was glad to leave the dialysis center and my most favorite nephrologist Dr. Anjum behind.  I felt, unfortunately, that he broke doctor and patient confidentiality in June anyway. Jackie believes he did as well.

Anyway, I have been thinking, now that I am 55 years old, my parents still alive and living their golden years nearby or in another state, I have to admit that their days are shorter now. My dad is 83 and my mom is 81, and my dad’s wife is 75 and my brother is going to be 59 on October 15th, and his wife will be 60, I am getting my affairs taken care of with my caregiver Jackie looked into. It is something I need to do NOW! I need to get off my iPad and get to my phone now because I have 10% battery left on my iPad. It just alerted me that the battery is low. My battery percentage on my phone is 100% right now. I’ve switched to my phone now.

Journal Changes??

I don’t really have any more journal changes, but I am making some changes in my journals on Pages. While Jackie is out running errands with a neighbor, I am at home listening to The UnXPlained TV program with William Shatner. I might as well as get some writing done for the afternoon. Writing my thoughts help me quite a bit these days. ❤️👍🏻 😉 While Jackie is out, I find it the best time to journal and write away my life, 😇❤️

As the month of August plays its days from this day forward, so will my thoughts and feelings will be written to the best of my ability starting right now. My Life in Words is one of several diaries and journals I have created at DD. I am looking forward to see where August and the last days of summer will take me in terms of each day lived by me.

As my life continues to move forward, I am doing my best at not being so critical of myself these days. I have to admit that I dislike physical therapy and want to do exercises my way or no way, I am finding myself being very set in my ways now. I am very stubborn and very temperamental I am NOT afraid to say in the least and to be brutally honest with you and myself. My temperament can be blamed on the Karnopp men in the family unfortunately. The Karnopp men have anger issues because most of them were farmers. My Uncle Ed was the only one who got angry and loud. My Aunt Dorothy was the only sister of four brothers Bob, Ed, Larry/Butch, and Ray.

So Far Today

Jackie got back over a half an hour ago. We have ordered pizza and chicken wings from Mac’s Pizza Shack and waiting for the delivery order to get here so we can eat lunch/supper together. I wanted to go on the bus to Mac’s Pizza Shack, but Jackie wanted to help a neighbor get his groceries before coming over for the afternoon after Deb came and got me ready for the day. I am in the living room watching and listening to The UnXplained. So far today, going on 2 pm CST here in Wisconsin. Lunch/Supper is HERE.