I should've celebrated the occasion. Have a party or something. Instead, I've missed the date completely. So we will have to have an entry back dated to the day I become 20. It felt a significant milestone to me - 20 years of journaling. I could've easily be a writer just by publishing my diary into War&Peace sized book. You can breath now - nothing like this will ever happen! Except from MMT moments...Made-Me-Think moments. When something triggers a motion in my brain and a sudden need to pin it down. And what's the best way to catch a thought if not to make it not just "being thought", but also "heard" and "seen"?! I used to believe that until I say it, it won't be real. And I used this diary for exactly that. For making world around me …"real"... you see, you can think of the matter as much as you wish, but the truth is - you just keep it all within yourself. And certain things do need to be let out. In the open. So you can sort of step back and take a look at your thoughts from another viewpoint. Simply because it gives you better picture from a distance. Bigger picture. Easy to see for what it really is...
So, this Diary was my place to "step back and see". And somehow it happens that some would come and read and some would leave their thoughts on the matters raised...and many more - just come and read in silence...and, perhaps, take some thoughts with them to ponder too...To me personally the beauty of DearDiary is in this no-obligation freedom to share. Such a healthy way of sharing. No judgement, no contention, people come, read and only say something if they have something to say...And some of that sharing evolved into free-flowing exchange between likeminded people, some of these connections grew into strong friendships...and so it goes...
In 20 years I've been here, in DDLand, I've learnt from many wonderful authors to look at life in many interesting ways...I've met amazing people who otherwise i'd never meet in the realms of life. And if I didn't leave many traces in other diaries, I read a lot...I listened...I laughed with some, I cried with some and I loved with some...and with some the connection was so profound, it felt on many physical and spiritual levels...and these experiences enriched my soul and added missing pieces to fit my puzzle and I can simply say: DearDiary has a sound place in who I have become...