When we walk the road, we tend to have our views altered by various things…the road bends to the left or the right and we notice something that was out of our view before…or our load has become too heavy and we sag under its weight and look down instead of looking forward…or we might acquire a fellow traveller for a short leg of our journey and the company helps to see the world with an extra eye, each completes the other one like a jian bird. Views altered all the time for us. I’ve noticed, how the mood would colour my world differently, highlighting different aspects depending on a hue…and this hue is my litmus reaction to whatever comes my way, isn’t it. So when I offer the alter native view, it is the same one as another's, reflected off the walls of the state of my mind. I am a girl of alternative views. The in-house specialty, not to everyone’s taste. Maybe being normal could’ve get me further and get me there faster. But alas, it is not in my habit to alter my views to the convenience of the others.
Things only happens to us. We give them the meanings. I’ve been thinking lately how easy it would’ve made our life if we’d just take it as it is. I mean, we tend to “see” it through the lenses of emotions and this distorts the real thing all the time. I wish to be indifferent observer with the see-through ability. Not that I found it hard to involve my emotional eyesight in everything I come across, I just feel it standing on my way. Obscuring views with unnecessary little details, dusty sand clouds of involvement…at times my perception doesn’t look pure enough contaminated with emotions. And I’m looking to simplify the matters. To scoop out the icing on top and taste the core. To say what it is and to hear the same. Sometimes I do not want to say a word if saying a word means decorating my simple thought in ornamented language…and look at me now – I managed to speak vaguely while condemning the vagueness itself! How ironic is that! Ha ha...
Once again I enjoyed the creative cooking my mind has to do when tasked with a need. The initial thought of bringing the lighting and heating in the bathroom up-to-date happened some times ago. I had no idea what is that up-to-date look that I want. I gave myself time to wander across the inter nets to see what’s out there, found nothing to spark my inspiration further, put the task to the shelf for a time being. A few weeks later returned to the same idea once more. Wandered the inter nets, found different options to consider, stopped there and left it on the same shelf again. I suspect all this time my mind has been working quietly on a background processing the information gathered in wonderings. Otherwise why would I as of a sudden “knew” what is it that I want to do with my bathroom. With the certainty comes confidence and a vision of a sequence of the tasks. And I like that. I like that I don’t boil the ideas in my head, that I don’t worry of what if something go wrong, that I do not hesitate am I doing it right. I like that I trust my mind to make the best choices and without pressure. I have a picture in my mind now and it won’t be long when my new bathroom will look like it in my reality. Yay! To the launch of my new project!