MissTick
Thingish Things

Change is never easy; you fight to hold on, you fight to let go. It still feels too scary to let go of that rope that holds you to your past. And while the rope has become more like a noose then a safety line, the fear is still there…even if there were mistakes made, the past is what defines me still, when I think about me, I think of who I was, what my life have been and how I’ve been perceived by the others…and in theory it should be more about who I am to become, which direction my life will go and how do I want to be perceived by the others…Knowing the right way still doesn’t always mean walking it…I think it is because I do not know the answers to these questions about the future, that’s why I fear to let go of the past…it feels like as soon as I do, I will loose the last pieces of the meaning of my existence. Is it better to have a self-perception of a looser then self-perception of a nothing?..

No one asks for their life to change. Not really. The change even to the better at first feels uncomfortable…I can relate this to the fear of unknown. We do not know yet what the future might be and that scares. Uncertainty scares, being unsure in your own ability to handle it terrifies, not having a usual shoulder to rely on frightens…changes do scare regardless if they are useful or not. So we tend to hold on. Forgetting that what we hold on to is no longer a reality, but just our memories of it…The reason people hold onto memories for so long is because it's the only thing that doesn't change…

When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be. ~ Lao Tzu~

Let go…