This is not an entry about Anna Karenina. I’ve been thinking of her for no particular reasons… or maybe it’s a weird association game being playing in my mind…with trains, swords and other seemingly unrelated stuff…

The thought was: would you throw yourself under the train and if so – for what kind of reason? And would you want it to happened publicly or privately? And how many of those who witnessed the fall would actually understand the real reason behind it? And is there a difference in how many would be watching?

Obviously, I didn’t mean the real rail track here ;-)

"But she did not take her eyes from the wheels of the second car. And exactly at the moment when the midpoint between the wheels drew level with her, she threw away the red bag, and drawing her head back into her shoulders, fell on her hands under the car, and with a light movement, as though she would rise immediately, dropped on her knees. And at the instant she was terror-stricken at what she was doing. 'Where am I? What am I doing? What for?' She tried to get up, to throw herself back; but something huge and merciless struck her on the head and dragged her down on her back." [Tolstoy, Anna Karenina.]

BTW: I've finally made up my mind and bought them, damn curtains...