I wrote and then I read what I wrote and was horrified...this was so not ME saying these things at all...It was too dark, too miserable, too everyunpleasantthing entry. so it gets dismissed into the private, sorry...yes, true, I didn't feel particulary good lately...and I do feel confused and lost and all these other things too...and I am having difficulties with detachement...but someone said to me some time ago: you've got patience...yes, you right: I do have patience...and if no other virtues will pull me out of this crack between two lives, my Patience will...I'm sure...or am I?...