Oh, how many thoughts are in my head today!…too many…lol. Is there any limit to the size of an entry in this place? Think not…the only limit is – patience. Mostly that of readers….:-) I’ll try to keep it short…although its not always possible and if you’d know me better, you’d say it is not possible at all to keep her quiet, when she thinks, she’s got some things to say…I’m almost “unshutable”, when I am “overthought”…oh, btw, about misusing language by yours truly. Yep, I do this a lot. I create new words, when I think they better for what I think and I misuse the normal words when I simple not aware…I do this in English and in my native language too...Language amuses me, I’m fascinated with the way words can come up from someone truly Master Of The Words (hey, I’m not talking about me here!) Words have even stronger affect in virtual conversations. Because when you type you “see” what you are saying…Oh, I like the games with words…sadly my English set of words is limited, which sometimes creates a slapstick or totally embarrassing for me situation …I could’ve tell a lot of such and believe me, I always play the lead. But I can laugh at myself too, so guess this is good then…and I can learn from mistakes as well…so that next time I won’t be “laid”, even if “laid off”…;-)

That was “lyrical digression” (for those who hope for the end – now is a good time to navigate to somewhere else, coz there is more to come in here)

I’ve read in other diary:
we are more comfortable with an anonymous face then one that knows us…
And I thought: how true…and then I thought: but why? Is it a shame? Or is it a promise of non-judgment? Or is it an indication that we lie, even to ourselves? Either way, it IS true indeed, so, let’s not worry of a reason, if it helps to feel better…[~pensively scratching her head - nevertheless, would've been nice to know]

Last thing for today (though much more will be left unwritten). A thought that I will elaborate some other time, but just want to leave it here for reminder…
It is about balancing again…This time a balancing between the needs. And in continuation of the previous “All In One” topic…I suddenly found myself in a situation when I’m balancing my needs by getting different things in different places…I’m yet to make up my mind if this way suits me. Sometimes I’m happy, other times am not.
I’m often catching me on attempting to cross the line, to get from one not only what they are willing to give but more…I'm not happy then. I’m frightened when I notice I’m doing this. Scared to get back to the point of believing in “All In One”, coz to be honest, in times when I used to believe, I wasn’t happy. Not to mention that I’ve never found...
anyway, I’ve got no more time, which is sad, coz today is one of those rare days, when I’ve got too much to say...
Later...