I am numb. Another person murdered by the thugs in my community. Pepper-sprayed, pinned down, executed. For trying to assist two witness bystanders who were also sprayed. There is no doubt about this one. Within minutes, the gangsters had posted a false narrative of events. Within minutes, the gangsters and thugs blocked Minneapolis police and the State Bureau of Criminal Apprehension access to the scene, despite a judicial warrant. All evidence of this murder will be erased. Yet again.

This is not caused by unruly violent agitators egged on by our mayors and governor. No one is preventing them from removing dangerous criminals. If only that was what they were actually doing. No, this is the result of poorly trained macho men being unleashed on our community who have zero regard for life or law, whose only mission is to wreak havoc on our people.

If you have been quiet up until now, I plead with you. Now is the time to speak up. How many more executed people is it going to take for you to speak out? You know this is wrong. Don't turn and walk away. Your community is next.

I was shaking for several hours, my head churning trying to find an answer, trying to understand. But evil cannot be understood.

And so I walked. And I walked. And I walked. For two hours I walked, and did not even notice the cold, despite it being 2F. I shouted as I walked. WHY?? I shouted to the snow. Why is no one in the rest of the country coming to our aid? Why is this allowed to keep happening? HOW?? I shouted to the trees. How can this keep happening with no repercussions? How can people support this? How do they live with themselves? WHERE?? I shouted to the pond. Where is this loving god of which people speak? Where does evil and murder fit into god's plan? WHAT?? I shouted at the cars passing by. What are you doing to stop this? What can we do?

Oh what, oh what, can we do when our nation's gangsters are against us, not for us?

It feels hopeless but I am not giving up on hope. I will keep going, continue to speak. Keep watch on my neighbors.

But oh I am so numb right now.