I'm not going to mince words. My sister is a white nationalist nazi sympathizer. Over the last 15 years, she has really gone off the deep end and it has been sad watching her decline into conspiracy theories and other such nonsense. She fancies herself much more intelligent than any of her siblings and always does "research" to show us how wrong we are. Her research now involves googling questions and presenting an AI summary slop as fact. For 3.5hrs yesterday, we went back and forth until I ended it, when she started spouting party line nonsense and insulted me.

I have decided my sister is dead to me. This is not a rash decision made in anger. This is from years of her drama (I spent hours one afternoon trying to talk her down when she was convinced her DIL had pushed her son off a cliff), her lies (I heard her telling my youngest that we planned his birth for December because Sagittariuses tend to be wealthy and he could support me in my old age...He was unplanned and quite a surprise) and over the years she told me one of our sisters was a hoarder and another was an alcoholic. This just scratches the surface. But the final straw is her supporting this regime that puts my children, their spouses and my grandchildren in danger. When the day of reckoning comes for all the atrocities committed by the gangsters and thugs--and it will come--I want it clear which side I was on, that I tried to help her, and she chose evil. I want it clear she is dead to me and I have nothing to do with her abetting the criminals.

Honey had a similar Sunday afternoon with a coworker. On the phone for 1.5hrs listening to the nonsense from this white supremicist. Honey told the guy he is a CHRINO--christian in name only.

Both of us emotionally exhausted by our afternoons and the weekend in its entirety, I reassured him we are doing all we can do. Others do more, yes, but we are still contributing.

Otherwise....I had two 🧊 alerts yesterday where I bundled up and patrolled, one in the retail area and one by the school area where they hold Hmong church service and across the street from that where Nigerians gather to worship. The first 🧊 alert ting on my phone, I wailed, "Noooo I can't do this today." And then that voice deep in my heart said "Yes you can. You don't get to choose. This is required."

In the sorrow and the despair, I forgot to make a batch of dinner for this week! It will have to be single portion, frozen leftovers.

I have a feeling this entry is going to look really gross when I finally save it. Oh well. I had to save the text conversation for posterity.