I am just so tired. Of processing all of it. Trying to achieve some sort of understanding of it and coming up with nothing. Pulling in the information from all sides and wondering why they refuse to even acknowledge the information contrary to their belief. Only taking snippets. Tired of watching people turn to misinformation as truth. Tired of working so hard to present factual information only to be ignored and dismissed. Tired of fingers being pointed at one person when there is a whole gang to blame. Tired of losing people as they fall down the rabbit hole that they will never come out of again. One after another after another. If you can't beat 'em, join 'em I guess is what they're going after. But tired too of observing this narcissistic culture of what's in it for me instead of we all do better when we all do better. I just have no patience for narcissists.

Anyway.

Woke up Saturday to an inch of snow. Sigh. Friday it was in the 50s, so it's rather discouraging to be back to winter, but this is March and with it comes all of its multiple personalities and its ugliness. At least the snow won't last long as today will be near 60. Up and down, up and down, all week.

Finally figured out where the fungus flies were coming from. There was a bag of potting soil in the basement that was covered with the flies, so I hauled it outside. That bag has been in the basement for over a year, so I'm kind of surprised that was the source. But they must have come in on something else and then found small holes in the bag to breed. Ugh. Hopefully this will take care of it now🤞

My newest obsession is arepas. I saw a recipe in the NYT and I want to learn how to make them. So I spent an hour trying to find masarepa flour nearby. Walmart (oh how I despise walmart!) was the only nearby grocery that had it. But after I navigated the most ridiculously set up parking lot in the history of parking lots, and dodged the kadrillion people...the shelf was empty. So I had to go to a different walmart and do it all over again. Sigh. Why are walmart parking lots so f*ed up and why do so many people drive the wrong way through them???

Got the flour home and tried making a half batch. They didn't turn out how I expected. I had one while it was warm, it tasted okay but the texture was off. And they are something that needs to be eaten immediately. I tried another after it had cooled, nope. The rest went into the food scrap compost. I'm not giving up. I think I need to try a different way of cooking them.

Watched the movie Hotel Mumbai last night. That was some pretty horrible stuff that went down in the radical name of god. ​I had no recollection of it happening so looked up more info on when it occurred. 2008. Ah yes, the year my divorce was finalized. I was dealing with a whole other batch of stressors that year in addition to the contentious divorce, including a breast cancer scare, a horrible work environment and going back to college. ​​​No wonder Mumbai was not on my radar at the time.

The time change has not affected me this year, as I never adjusted to the change back in November. I wish we could be on DST year round.