at 38 (yea so what!) i've come to the conclusion that life is a bit impossible to get through sanely unless you make yourself number 1. this doesn't include stepping on other people and treating them like shit. nor does it include walking around with a big head of arrogance thinking the world owes you something. i am no fool. what i get, i know i have to work for. what is free, is usually the things worth having: beautiful nature and good true friends and family. love is beautiful, and while it often gives me the slip, i have to say that the love i've had in my life (excluding from my family)has often been so dear to me that i've all about erased the crap that hung on its coat tails.
and now?
-i come first.
what i need, what i want. i will not bend over the whims of others. i've demanded respect here in my workplace (which, by the way, is working)so other aspects of my life will be no different.

ps. this is not about anyone in particular.
just a conclusion i've come to.
;-)