you want a cigarette really bad today. puff it all in and blow it out to let the surrounding air worry about the blue that's floating. busy work, busy work, keep busy, tackle that junk drawer, sort the fucken bills. line up the shoes in your closet, it doesn't matter if their partner is under the couch or stuffed behind some box. just do it. put your damned running shoes on and go for that run. get those good juices flowing again. unplug the telephone. get into a hot bath. rinse it all away. just don't know anymore.