said you'd give me light, but you never told me about the fire
the best intentions would never be able to carry these tired feet home. all you ever wanted to do was get away. sit quietly while the scenery scrolled by. leave your bullet-holed shadow resting on some sidewalk a thousand miles from here. immerse yourself in family and drown out the future's lie. you want to say you're never going back again. you want to take that step that moves you from there to here. let that portal close up, zip shut, and erase the seams away. you've always felt that you pass through the door, enter as yourself, become some other, only to exit the way you came in.
he was singing and undoing, laces.