can't seem to get past a million today, that heavy metal ball sinks straight past my flippers.
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beautiful day today. it's cherry blossom fireworks in broad daylight. wish i could find my own little spot underneath their pretty pink colored smiles. i'd fall fast asleep.
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frustrated with fm radio.
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had a very strange dream about a baby boy who turned out to be mine...
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a fan of "one" (saw it at the Met)i watched a film based on jackson pollock's life. tragic. i've got a soft spot for ed harris...but that's since "the abyss",
when he kisses the life back into mary elizabeth mastrantonio's character. romantic.
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can't bear to listen to anymore floyd. it's a downer. but not worse than the cure. and led zep is just too damned sexy to listen to...that damned lemon song.
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sore as hell, been working upper body harder than usual. now i know what i've been missing. and how much farther i have to go. legs are getting back their muscular shape, but ms. butt is still a little flabby...but i'm working on that, i'm trying to work my ass off.
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bought mom an easter card. strange that "dad" isn't written anywhere..
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i'm just beginning to get a grip. but i'll never be the person i was before he left. don't think anyone ever is...