Time For February to Shine

Move over January 2026, it’s time for February to shine for the next 28 days now. Boy, the first month of the year seemed to go by fast at times and slow or slower other days. It really depended on what was going on from day to day in my life. I am always grateful for God giving me another day to live despite how I feel so do not get me wrong when I do have a rough day from time to time.

What Needs to Be Said Versus What Has to Be Said

What do I mean with the title being ‘What Needs to Be Said Versus What Has to Be Said’ comes from afar? No, not from God, but from the back of my mind. My brain can retain and purge what is necessary from day to day, and at this time being   55 years old, I have to admit that my very good memory is not understood by everyone who have come and gone out of my life since I have been born on July 3, 1970. Sometimes, depending on the day, the circumstances, and what mood I am in depends on what needs to be said versus what has to be said comes to and from the recesses of my brain that acts like a filing cabinet most of the time than anything. When I need to write over I have to write can sometimes find me on a collision course somewhere and I have to sort out my thoughts before I run into one of my emotions which is mainly panic. My caregiver Jackie told me the other day that she has not seen me panic lately. She does not think I have depression. Maybe not now or more recent, but I have dealt with depression in my 20s, and it was pretty bad at that time. Being put on Prozac DID help me deal with depression, but I found my first week or two with that medicine kind of rough. I think, if I remember correctly, I set my alarm for medication time, and slept for almost three days and nights. WOW! YIKES! So, it really depends on what I have to say or want to say is what matters to me I suppose and really guess.

I am NOT done even writing my thoughts of today yet, either. Another entry to follow tonight.