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For some reason, makes it very sad to be very honest with myself and you, that I have this feeling that not everyone at MercyHealth Dialysis Center really do NOT miss me or are really going to miss me at all… what a feeling I have been having all day long. Friday was my last day there too days ago. Wow, what a damn, negative thought that has hit me and got me thinking in such a way. Thanks a lot damn brain!

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