For Some Reason
We are having rainy weather today. My internet is choppy and slow right now. Knowin* the weather is causing a disruption earlier in my night and day, I am putting up with its ups and downs, I would prefer argumentative ways my family and friends today. Whatever my day consists of working on my feet and hands will be off and on. My journaling can hold out.
There are days I write more than any other day and today I am playing catch up with some journaling and writing while it is a quieter time for me, and of course, a weekend. I do have to admit that I write a lot some days and less on other days. That is how my brain works sometimes and I do find it frustrating and annoying on a day that is not my best day emotionally. Today we are having questionable weather because my internet is sluggish and very slow with Dear Diary this morning. It is no big of a deal, but it does get frustrating at times is all. I can deal with it today as I am having a better, good day so far. The only thing is I am playing catch up here at Dear Diary and writing a lot right now. Yes, it is my diary and I can do what I need to do here, but I don’t want to wear out my welcome here.
My weekend will be over shortly and I will be going to dialysis and physical therapy this week again. The PT sessions have not been scheduled by my caregiver Jackie and I’ve already had to cancel 3 PT sessions because of time and getting medical rides to work around my other necessary appointments. I told Jackie about my feelings about phy therapy at Mercy Rehabilitatio, but haven’t heard from her yet. This is her day off until Tuesday morning at 10 am. I do take my weekends very seriously when my caregivers come and go on Saturdays and Sundays here. I love my weekends to be free of appointments and necessary work and have more time for myself without someone here working around me, working for or with me. My Sundays are pretty laid back whrn Deb comes here twice on Sundays before she goes to church and comes back right after church or by 4:45 pm Sunday afternoon to get dinner cooked or warmed up in the microwave for me. Jackie always has Sundays and Mondays off while Debbie has Thursdays and Saturdays of. If my caregivers are ill, my girls work it out to get their schedules to work as smoothly as possibl, and sometimes I feel frustrated and get ugly because my caregivers cannot get things to settle 100% very easily. Also, my schedule and routine gets turned around, and my caregivers get real sick with the flu, sinus problems, and missing something in their normal routine. Both girls Deb and Jackie have their own way of doing things and I find myself pulling my hair or feeling a little more emotional than usual, I feel my routine crumbling underneath me to the point that I feel sick to my stomach and need to be unhappy with them. Deb was sick last week with influenza A that Jackie had to work more hours than her usual hours of work, but Jackie got sick earlier this week, so Deb took over for her hours. Jackie and Deb have their hours worked out until their scheduled days are what they are and some extra work time. It can get chaotic for them, and the change affects me in some way physically and definitely emotionally. I want to fire Jackie every week! Jackie’s attitude is verypppto my attitude that I deal with meltdowns every single week and day that my anxiety and moods are settled internally. From Friday evening to Monday morning, I am probably one of thodr. I am who likes and loves traditional routines and schedule we all final before ending it for the moment that is very questionable at times. Right now there is cat in my site. They’re being aloof and invisable. That is my fur babies anyway.
No Company Today
With my caregivers and their schedules, my boyfriend and his mom will not be coming this today. That gives me plenty of time for myself for the day. Tanya is not feeling well and with her line of work, she understands that catching illnesses is not good for my immune system being compromised by kidney transplant 37 years ago this month on March 12th and disease after 6 years ago. I am working toward a second transplant by getting some tests done to put my name on the transplant list. I have to get my teeth fixed and extracted and a colonoscopy done to finish up my testing for the year. Since I am not having company this morning before noon, I am taking advantage to get my diary all caught up for last week and start fresh tomorrow. Anyway, looking at the time, Deb will be back sometime after 12 noon because she will be dropping a neighbor off back home here at Garden Court and make sure I get to the bathroom and back to my bedroom for the afternoon and evening, and get me settled for the night before heading home to her son and husband. I better head off for a while. It is time for a break and watch City Confidential for a while. More later…