When it comes to my journaling today, or this week so far, I have no set idea what format, using Pages I want to use to write my thoughts, feelings, and what is happening. I am ALWAYS changing my mind lately for some reason, and I have an app I am paying for on my iPad to write my thoughts and feelings…so…why am I using Pages and wasting my time finding the right template to journal for the day? LOL what the heck?! Well, anyway, I am having one of those days where my emotions are going all over the place ever since I started dialysis this morning. I do not like it when Deb tells Jackie what I did wrong during her caring for me during the morning before Jackie gets here to hook me up to the dialysis machine for my 3 hour session that is scheduled on M, T, Th, and F mornings by 10 AM and off by 1 PM if everything goes smoothly with the machine itself and my catheter. So far, since last Monday morning when Azura surgeons and nurses removed the 10th catheter and replaced it with my 11th catheter for Azura’s second time, the catheter has been working and doing a fantastic job for treatment, so I am not having an emotional breakdown over my dialysis treatment regarding my catheter this week. I am just having one of those days with my emotions causing me to feel I am feeling attacked today, and what format I want to use is NOT really the problem to be very honest here/with you. Hmmm?, because I do have 3 entries written using a journal app I have on my iPad called Journal, so I have used it 3 different times just for the fact I did have it, I’m keeping it to begin using it sometime soon, but when is a good question. ❤️

Anyway, with having one of these emotional days, I am glad that I have one more dialysis treatment tomorrow — Friday morning before my weekend finally begins, and depending on the weather, I hope I can go to the Farmer’s Market with whoever works on Saturday. Deb has had the past couple of Saturdays off because of family things going on. Usually Jackie works on Saturdays for a couple of hours before having Sundays off, but Deb was gone one weekend visiting her dad out of town p, so she (Jackie) worked for me that weekend. Today, I feel my emotions were going in directions I have difficulty understanding from time to time. I am looking forward to the weekend.