Bear With Me Today
Please bear with me today. I was up late last night. I got 3 hours of sleep last night because my brain was in thinking mode all night long. When I am in thinking mode late at night, I have to roll with what comes my way in my waking hours of the day. Although I do not nap at dialysis like other patients do, I do sit in my chair quietly. I might rest my eyes for the two hours and forty-five minutes I am on the machine, but sleep is not easily found at the clinic because of the noises the machines make in the pods we have. I did get 3 hours of sleep when I had awakened at 3 am in the morning. I just might fall asleep at dialysis today at the way I am feeling, and no I am not anxious because Jackie isn’t working for and with me most of this week. I am doing okay without Jackie being here right now. I am feeling relieved, for the first time, not having Jackie around to be very honest with you and myself. Yay, I suppose, LOL. ❤️🙂🤪🙃💭💭💭💭. . . Hmm? Just maybe… more later on that thought.
Changes in the Making
One of the changes I am going to be making in my journaling is that I will be using my Pages program on my phone, iPad, and MacBook Pro when I write for Dear Diary. The site sometimes gets lost when I hit certain keys while typing, and I type with one hand (left hand and right pointer finger on my right). Yes, I am a six fingered typist because of cerebral palsy on the right side of my body. Anyway. Deb will be here by 8:20 am to get me ready for the day and out the door by 11 am. Today is Wednesday snowing it is dialysis day today for 2 hours and 45 minutes of my day. I rarely miss treatment on dialysis days! I am one of the very few patients who will skip a treatment during the week. I miss treatment because my caregivers can’t get to me ride away because of weather or illness, and my caregivers have to realign hours between one another. I have to caregivers and they are Jackie and Debbie, and Julie M is backup or a fill-In due to caregiver being ill. My caregivers and boyfriend and his mom do now come over when they are sick with a fever. I don’t need to get sick, too. I can’t afford it when it comes to mt immune system being compromised because of the kidney transplant and now disease. So bear with me today as my thoughts are not in order today, lol. I am going all over the place and may have less paragraphs separating my thoughts. Yep, told you they are going all over the place, LOL. I guess a diary can be of anything?! 🤪❤️💭