Why the ‘Me’ title? Well, why not?! Three years ago my ability to walk had stopped for over a year and I had to relearn to walk, and in the meantime, while learning to walk again, I had people say to me that they wanted the old Kristi back. Those words hit me in such a way that angered me because I did not get a hematoma inside my body that prevented my legs from functioning properly for a while. During this change and interruption in my life and days to come to the present day we know as today, I suffered from severe depression, anxiety, and panic disorder in such a way that I was not sure of who I was anymore. Those days of change had come and gone as each day passed. Although I am more accepting now than I was when I didn’t for a long time, I’ve had talks with my mom about the times I felt I was struggling with the old Kristi with the new Kristi when all that time the old Kristi was hiding in the background waiting for me to snap out of it and know the old Kristi hasn’t gone anywhere. Umm, what a whirlwind I was in. It was one tornado that caused a great deal of trouble in my life.
When things began to change at MercyHealth Dialysis, I began to notice things in my medical needs go up and down when the dialysis staff kept trying to find ways to weigh me properly without the stress, but of course, it became an in and out nightmare for me because they did not have a very good scale that could weigh me in the power chair until the last few months of me going there. Also, my complaints were never resolved while I was going there and the care had gotten questionable and I dreaded going to MercyHealth Dialysis after they used heparin too early after my colonoscopy the week before and they removed a polyp and that last visit with Dr. Anjum before being discharged from the hospital, we decided that we were leaving MercyHealth Dialysis and planned on going to Fresenius Kidney Care Clinic thanks to the information we received from a dialysis nurse at MercyHealth Hospital who knew that MercyHealth Dialysis has its problems and issues. Confiding in her, we did what we had to do to get away from what had impacting me negatively to something more positive and that meant going somewhere new and no one knew me.
Today, since July 1st, I have been away from MercyHealth Dialysis and at Fresenius Kidney Care clinic having dialysis at a different clinic has given me a new lease on life and the stress and pressure has melted away slowly but surely, and my anxiety seemed to take it’s curtain call and left me. I got my happy back. 😊 😃 The old Kristi is back, with some changes that are now ACCEPTED by myself and my very stubbornness I can gladly say is exactly like my Grandma Clarence’s stubbornness, lol, and I am glad to have to use when necessary and sometimes on a whim 🥹😜😇