Here I am, always writing in my journal/diary once again. I know I write a lot sometimes and I have a few journals at Dear Diary/DD these days, but I like to have some organization in my chaotic life I have been living this far 54 1/2 years and my 55th birthday is next Thursday already. Another year of my life is coming in a few days. Wow! I am not going to say I have been through hell and back more than once in my lifetime whether or not I was ready to face what I have faced in my life as a human being who feels like an outsider in her own family for years. I ame here for a reason and sometimes I do not understand why because some of my experiences have been eye openers and something learned through a lesson of sorts. My friend and physical therapy therapist Christine Kane-Gagne had told me years ago that life is a bunch of lessons to live and learn from like sitting in a classroom. After graduating high school and college level courses/classes, the School of Hard Knocks is the life you are living because you are learning something new as well as reviewing what you have put into practice. In my own and personal life, I have a very good example about remembering a time I go back to. I was in ninth grade and I was having trouble with something in English and it was taking a while for me, but two weeks later was test day came and I got through it ALL except I got stumped on circling, underlining, and double underlining words in sentences. Yet, those 2 weeks of fussing at a minimum, I passed the test with a B+, and I was okay with that. My ninth grade teacher is now going to be 91 this coming August 22nd and I wish I could go to her now to review what I know and remember and go from there. Why? Because, I want to learn what she meant by sentence structure.
Okay, here I am, remembering something that happened 40 years ago this year, and my world is going through memory lane right now.