Please forgive me for being so quiet and reserved, and talking a lot about my last meltdown this last weekend. I am doing my best at sorting things out and perseverating about such matters, but my last meltdown has thrown me in a fashion that affected me all week long and from Sunday and today, the 10th of October to be honest with you. I have to admit that my visit with Mr. Monkey has been a doozy this time, but my caregiver Jackie says I am doing fine and I am entitled to have a bad day once in a while. I agree, but this week was a long one because this last meltdown hit me hard for the first time and something unexpected happened everyday and today that made me feel like I failed big time somewhere and it turned into an avalanche.

Today, although mentioned in my Fresenius journal I wrote about my first training session for having hemodialysis done at home, my day was better. My appointment on the machine today was 10:40 am to 1:45 am. I have to be at the clinic for training on the hemodialysis machine for the home Monday through Friday with a couple of Wednesdays I will not be training due to other medical appointments those days, and I do not have to have dialysis on Saturdays while I training sessions due to the fact that the home dialysis nurse does not work on the weekends, and there is one day, I will be at the clinic at 8:30 am instead of being there at 10 am for training sessions. So today was a fair one.