A new day has begun at for me. I wake up from a dream I dreamt of my friend MEE.  Although, MEE and have seen each other last year in 2025 at a party I was throwing in the community room. I believe e it was a Tupperware party, he came to see me like old times. I could care less if he bought anything. He didn’t, but had a good time seeing some old neighbors. We were riding in his truck somewhere having a wonderful day together as friends. I do not think we were going anywhere special,  but were having a great time chatting with one amothsr about how we met and what we wanted to do in our lives. Then I had awakened from sleep and realized that the time was 7 AM and realized and remembered  that Debbie had the day off and Jackie will be here today by 10 AM. My dream did not startle me, but seeing my friend Mark at a time I hoped we would become boyfriend and girlfriend I. My dream would never happen because he looked to me as a sister. Although MEE is younger than me, he does t look younger. I, too, for a while couldn’t accept him only as a friend, but when I learned why, I fully understood. My heat accepted the fact that we will remain friends. He was also not ready for a girl to be a girlfriend hey anyway. He’s just out of high school and did not have a stable job was the fact he could not support a couple in a marriage at that time was a fair and good reason. It made sense. Anyway, now, and for 10+ years, I have found someone by the name of Ken (KB). I have found someone I love dearly. We would get married, but our medical needs are very costly. I would love to get married, but with our medical needs being what they are, we would have difficulty on a fixed income and being on social security income. I believe that the government doesn’t quite understand the handicapped or special needs men and women having financial difficulties. My thoughts about marriage, at times, is like I love my space and time with myself is very important emotionally. I do love my man KB, but one thing I will not do is sleep in bed with anyone because of my needs to have enough space so if I have CP spasms, I do not hit my bedmate. Am I a strange woman? One night I slept overnight at KW and her husband Jimmy’s and KW had another girlfriend over. She and her friend slept in the living room while she asked me to sleep in the bedroom with Jimmy. WHAT? Well, I did, but I didn’t want to, but did, and I was very uncomfortable doing so. The following morning, with KW’s other friend there, too, I told her and Jimmy I will NEVER sleep in a bed with another woman’s husband or wife ever again. It’s wrong even if there are no benefits or sex involved. Kelly understood and I believe I never spent the night again at anyone’s house again unless I went to see family out of state. That would be going to New Mexico to visit my mom and stepdad LLL. I have to talk about my stepdad and mom sometime. That is one relationship I will not forget. Will explain later. Time for me to get ready for the day as Jackie is here and I have dialysis today. I am still going to the clinic at Fresenius, but it’s my last day because we are going back k go home dialysis training on Tuesday for a couple of weeks than doing home dialysis again. So, I will write more later today.