As far as my weight is concerned for this week, my weight is improving from the coming in and going out weight checks from scheduled weigh in and weigh outs. I am working on losing weight to be able to get my second kidney transplant in the future as long as I am heading in that direction once again for the second time. I DON’T want to be dialyzing for the rest of my life to be very honest with you, but I am feeling very flustered and unsure about having a second transplant to be very honest with you. My mom knows of my thoughts about it and she understands I have mixed feelings about it and the feeling is being pushed onto me mentally by my caregiver Jackie. I don’t lie the feeling of being pushed in that direction when certain family members did not believe I would take good care of my first transplant and I DID for 31 years! What the hell! My second kidney transplant will NOT be the same as my first transplant to be very honest with you! I know that’s a large factor in my thinking. My mom would not have given my my first kidney if I did not promise her I would not have taken good care of it. U became a healthy kidney transplant patient and gained weight past 95 pounds in a few months, and began having weight issues for years.