I want to write more on that thread I was on. Its part of me just having to relook at things and see them for what they were. H keeps saying "its the past"
I know its the past. I have to come to terms with it all to move beyond it.
Maybe its not the same way he is thinking. I think he just wants to forget it all.
I believe in forgiveness, but forgiving doesnt mean to not be cautious. Especially when something is in a repeated pattern.
I do believe anything can be worked thru with God. Does it mean that that is what will happen? No.
But until I see how I got to where it is I have been in my life, will I be able to change it.
Have been working on the bathroom in the house. I will put my before and after home remodel pics up when its close to done. Its the only room I really did this with in the house. Wish I had done it with every room. The house was pretty crappy inside when we bought it and H had redone most of the rooms.
Still have to buy some things, but finances wouldnt allow. Big thing done is the ceramic tile floor! YAY!
But I still want to buy a new Pedestal sink for that bathroom. That can wait.
Now its like what room will be the next project? I need to paint both the kids rooms. And buy some things. And I also need to paint the office, but theres so much stuff in there, that will most likely wait. I just have a lot of ideas for the office. I cant wait! I want to paint it one of those deep red type colors. Not bright red, but the type that you see in home decor magazines, Will have to start looking at swatches.
My youngest is at the Crystal Cathedral today watching the Glory of Christmas. I cant wait to hear what he has to say about it. They bring in live camels carrying the wise men and angels come down suspended from the cieling. I saw it several years ago. His school went today for a field trip.
Hes learning so much, he said to me last week "Mom you know Satan tried to tempt Jesus? But Jesus didnt listen, he told him to jump off a building, but Jesus said No, he didnt want to be bad"
He is having a Christmas program this week. I guess hes not in the play part, but will be singing. So he comes home from school each day and reinacts the practice rehearsals. I start laughing, cause hes actually got a dang good memory! And he jumps back and forth playing the characters. I asked "Why arent you in the play? Does your teacher now you have all this memorized?"
Hes generally been shy in the singing and all that, the teacher informed me of this at conference. So you have no idea he knows all this stuff, then all the sudden WHOOOOSH he lets out a whole play in my kitchen playing roles, jumping back and forth being characters.
Ok time to scoot. Later