Just read Marcellas entry on O and being a Daddy and how hes been feeling.
It transported me in time to the birth of my first child.
My H holding him. Pictures of him in the hospital holding his son, he stayed with me. They took too long to bring him back to us so H went to the nurses station complaining that we have our baby with us.
Everything was pretty calm and mellow.
I remember bucking him into the infant seat and that baby so tiny didnt look right for him in that seat, Its so huge when they are first born.
We drove home together, to our little apartment. It was homey, actually that was a good year. After having my first, It was a really nice year, for me at least I know it was. I had just given birth, it was near nightfall, friends were bringing us dinner. They didnt stay long at all. It was just the H, myself and our baby. We were both afraid to sleep that first night. We wanted to keep an eye on the baby. We both slept on the living room floor next to him.
See not everything was bad with the H, there were some good times also.
That year I was a stay home mom, we could make our bills, H was working and just got his first truck. Things were going good, I started to bond with a lot of women in church and the "Mommies group" I stayed at home, I remember giving my oldest a bath in his tiny tub next to the sliding glass door, the summers here are hot and the sun shone in right on him in the tub, and I would just slowly bathe him, shampoo his little head, clean out his ears, trim his finger nails. We didnt have cable that year, just video tapes. I remember I went thru a Little House on the Prairie phase and just watch episodes of it all the time.
I remember I used cloth diapers half the time to save money, and going to the laundry room with the bucket of cloth diapers. All my Mommy outfits. I had two that I liked, and my hair was really long. I felt good, our sex life had just started to improve, Hs job was advancing, we were moving up economically, I was active in church, we had a wonderful healthy baby.
What happened?
:::Cries:::