:::Stuffing food:::
And I wanna type here, eating salsa, quesadillas isnt an easy task while typing.
Im just Go GO Go GOOOO girl. Whew stop the ride!
Got off work,went by bank, headed home, got mail, changed clothes, headed to gym.
I was on the Precor doing my usual and noticed a man. I thought he was someone I knew, didnt wanna keep staring, but couldnt tell. His hair was thicker and he had a goatee, this guy did last time I saw him. I havent seen him in several years. He was part of my long time church. He always used to say Hi to me and always noted how I smiled, and last time I saw him I recall him saying "Keep up that smile of yours" So I thought for sure if it was him he would recognize me.
He then walked over to water fountain. I was staring again trying to figure if it was him, then he mouthed "H E L L O" slowly to me. I said his name, and he nodded, then walked over, he said "S right?" and then we chatted briefly.
"Hows the hubby he asked?" Another one of those people, my answers were vague so he said "Oh wait, are you guys separated?" I nodded, Then he started with the Im sorry like he felt bad for asking. I told him it was ok. We had the brief church talk, "Where you going now?" Neither of us were at the old church.
He talked about the kids, his son who is 13 was there with him working out. He said "Well your looking great" which was nice to hear and I thanked him.
I had little time. Had to head out for counseling. The friendly Gym dude came by and asked how my Jeep was. Even the guy who runs the joint is friendlier now. I guess Im just becoming a regular now. Actually getting to know people there for the what? First time in umm 3 yrs or so?? haha
Its kinda fun tho to have people to chat with. My little exposure to a social scene.
Headed to counseling, it went good. She then commented on how good I looked also. I had come from the gym, all sweaty smelly girl so wasnt expecting that.
Then rushed to get both kids, I ordered mexican food to go so I was heading out then Mom called me on my cell phone. She invited the kids over for dinner and that she would keep them a few hrs , give them dinner, and bring them home at bedtime.
Aweee isnt she cool????
I havent realized how busy I have been. Sure I went out when H was here, but other then that I havent done a whole lot, gotten a sitter, or anything like that.
So I dropped kids off, then headed down the Blvd. OHHH Tonight is the lighting of the trees! The Blvd is all pretty and they have children decorate trees and have them displayed up and down the st. And business open there doors, giving out treats, carolers are singing dresssed in Victorian wear, bell ringers, school bands. I rolled down my window and drove slowly, taking in the atmosphere. It was so pretty. My eyes started to tear up. These are beautiful things to me, the kind where you love having someone you love with you. I took a deep breath and said "Youll be ok, you can enjoy this still!" and drove home. So here I am, dirty smelly in gym clothes scarfing Mexican food alone on a friday night.
I have noticed since my little start of "Man Fast" a closeness to God. Its pretty cool, noticing my shift in emphasis. Sure I have fluttering thoughts at times, but I even read some scriptures today! Wowie. its been awhile since Ive done that. I recieved an email response again from the Christian womens website.
She gave me a suggestion of something , so just have to approach the H with it. Not really sure HOW at all he will take it, Id write it here, but many people would probably think its "Out there" having to do with spiritual manners, demons n such. So I will save that for myself.
Well my house is a mess, I will be cleaning on a Friday night. Oh what fun!
Later