When it comes to my moments on the soapbox, please understand that I am a human being with feelings and when someone or something pisses me off, I will call you on it and express my feelings and thoughts about what is getting me upset. I do understand that I should not take things personally at times, but I am a 55 year old woman who has a disabled condition called cerebral palsy, and through the years growing up I have seen hatred and love that has affected me in some way in my life personally and not personally. It has, unfortunately, changed me or not, and telling you about it today has finally happened. I am a human being with feelings who hates hatred, even though there are some things I do HATE, TOO. Don’t be surprised, ok? I WILL NOT tell you what I DO hate today. I will tell you what I have experienced the three years that made me realize I am definitely not perfect and need Jesus in my life everyday and NOT just when I want him to be there and no, this is NOT going to be spiritual realization moment. My life as a Christian is not the problem here. I know Jesus needs to be in my life everyday and I am working on perfecting my relationship with Jesus today. I struggle daily with my spiritual journey on a regular basis and love Jesus very much.
It has been most recent that I have been thinking about my life the way it has been in the past three years, and I have struggled physically in the past three years to get where I am today. I have family members who do understand me while others do know how I tick. While my caregiver Jackie P was busy during the week of July 18th through July 26th, 2025, I did some very serious thinking about some very important stuff and issues that have affected me personally in a good way and a negative way. I hated taking tests and exams in school. I wish I didn’t. Today, I am reminded of what I did and didn’t learn. Today, I look things up historic and read on it and go from there, and wish I retained information better back then or had a different perspective on tests, exams, and finals. Now I wish for this and that at age 55. UGH! Life is no different today, really! We are still learning EVERYDAY! I am going to start fresh right now!
More to come… And…
On to other things now