I had my first counseling session with Deb J at Mercy Options today at 3 pm to 4 pm. I went right after my nail appointment. It was my day to be pampered that almost didn’t happen this afternoon since I double booked two appointments at the same time this week. Jackie brought it to my attention in a lecture talking to me on the phone. People can’t do that to me without me defending myself and be shot down being irresponsible in not listening to Jackie’s conversation with my gal who is named Jacque. Umm, excuse me? Don’t throw that in my face lady because it’s not fair. Geez, what the heck? Stop lecturing me! Dang, I’m human and I have a lot on my mind and I’m forgetful these days.
What did Deb J and I talk about today? Well, the broken family I belong to and where my family live. My dad and his wife in Milwaukee, Wisconsin, my sister also in Milwaukee, Wisconsin, brother and his wife in Pennsylvania along with 2 nieces and my nephew in California, I believe, and my mom and her husband in New Mexico, and other relatives in the Gays Mills area in Wisconsin. With the dynamics being broken, I want Dr. Phil to help my family learn how to be civil with one another because I hear from my dad what my brother and sister-in-law do not have communication with my dad and his wife, and now with their middle child, daughter and her husband. I hear things from Dad, who is 83 years old now! My brother hasn’t spoken to our Mom since my nephew was 8 months old for some reason—because of something my mom’s husband said or did. That has been over 20 years for my mom.
I’ve talked about the fact that my parents, mom and dad, both sucked at parenting while I was growing up. Dad lost his patience with.me a lot and mom.abandoned me avid my brother when we were 12 and 16 to move from Richland Center. Wisconsin to New Mexico. I learned in 2023 that mom didn’t want joint custody of us kids anymore and gave dad all the custody rights. Umm, ok?! What the hell? I am finding out that my family is really broken and needs help! Not just me. Screw what my mother had to do so she was happy?! She has confused me from age 9 to today with her needs and wants. Ugh!!! I suffer from depression, anxiety, and panic disorder, and have the anger of the Karnopp men of the family, and I can cuss like a male farmer! Cuss like a sailor in other words to be very honest. I don’t turn in the Incredible Hulk or anything when I am angry, but I should when angry, though. Thanks, Bill Bixby, lol.
I will be writing to Dr. Phil!! I have had enough of the family tension between family members whether or not he will have the time to help my family. I am not afraid to air my family’s laundry to a man with many hats as a professional psychologist and celebrity.